Creep by Radiohead

Lyrics 'Creep by radiohead'

When you were here before,
couldn't look you in the eye.
You're just like an angel,
your skin makes me cry.
You float like a feather,
in a beautiful world

I wish I was special,
you're so fucking special.
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.

I don't care if it hurts,
I want to have control.
I want a perfect body,
I want a perfect soul.
I want you to notice,
when I'm not around.
You're so fucking special,

I wish I was special.
But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?.
I don't belong here
She's running out the door,
she's running,
she run, run, run, run, run.

Whatever makes you happy,
whatever you want.
You're so fucking special,
I wish I was special,
but I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here,
I don't belong here.

The song is really nice.. The story is pretty clear cut. The song interpretation to me is like you met someone really special but somehow she views you as someone normal, a creep a weirdo. You wish you were special for her but sad to say love isn't that simple. I really like the part

'I don't care if it hurts'
'I want to have control'
'I want a perfect body'
'I want a perfect soul'
'I want you to notice'
'when i'm not around'
'You're so fucking special'
Guess thats true when you really are in love with someone that even if she doesn't like you. You still carry on. In short this song is really nice. If i could, i would join a band and perform this song haha it would be good if i were the one singing.. But i would definately want to learn how to play this song on the guitar. Anyways TRUST ME ABOUT THIS SONG (: DL it..

Lesson 3rd and 4th..

HEY, its been damn long since i last post.. Haha so this is the finale to the end of the series for my trip in nz.. Haha this is to Aaron, i always take damn long to post because this type of thing need feeling its like no feeling i can't write.. I don't know if it will be boring or what.. haha but anyways here it goes... enjoy because its like i find la.. "INFORMATIVE"

Lesson 3 - Fast and Furious the OPPOSITE...
Well during my stay in NZ, i managed to learn as much as i can to drive a car.. Well, there are 2 types of driving a car.. Auto or Manual.. Auto is kinda like Go kart.. haha so with a few times behind the wheel you should be able to get it.. As for manual, its WAY HARDER... haha and i learn it the hard way.. Manual for me is really hard.. Firstly, because of all the gears , the clutch and the gas pedal and and THE OTHER CARS on the road and finally my DAD... Haha erm let me give you an insight on the gears and the clutch stuff... For the gears, there are like 5 gears, the first 2 gears is for slope while the 3rd,4th and 5th is for driving on normal road.. Its always advisable to use 5th gear the 3rd and 4th is like for start up... Haha oh ya if you're reading it and you think i said something wrong about the car gears and stuff, feel free to tell me cos i am just a learner.. yeah anyways i ALWAYS find the start of the gear is the hardest.. when you control the clutch and the gas pedal to move the car.. Because i am driving a seven seater thing.. i have to pre-release the clutch and press the gas so its like syronise movements.. Haha and everytime i NEVER press enough gas and the engine dies.. ITS REALLY FRUSTATING.. Haha and here comes the next part, MY DAD... his mood is like a time bomb.. Haha first its like " It's OK, nevermind" then again it happen "Try again, this time press more gas " then again "Off the engine! I tell you how many times already, then he shows me the hand movements of the syronise movements... NEXT he goes "!#%!%#$^ aiyo i having a headache already" Haha its really stressful with him teaching me.. then being me acting a basket, i rebutt him by saying "Its only my 2nd learning, and you are pressuring me like siao, why can't you be like the whites ? so encouraging and stuff" haha i was being an idiot bring up the whites style of teaching.. Because i cannot stand it... Haha but anyways he later explain to me that he just wants me to quickly learn because i have only 3 weeks with him which is a short time.. He's a good dad... haha an advice for those who are going to learn manual.. Haha be good in it before you hit the roads if not you will turn out to be like me.. Haha i was at the interjunction when the car engines die off 4 TIMES because i didn't press enough gas.. Haah that was kinda embrassing but luckily i drove in the night so not many people was around.. Haha now for auto, my WHOLE FAMILY IS SCARE OF ME DRIVING.. haha because auto is easier i tend to speed unesscary.. I nearly knock down my mailbox outside my hse, nearly bang a car and and and.. KILL ME AND MY BROTHERS.. cos there is a deserted place near my area.. So me and my bros went there to drive.. Then i was behind the wheel.. he asked my if i want to try drifting ? being INNOCENT in driving i said yes excitedly.. HAHA now i understand why the adults used to say you don't know the thing thats why you are not afraid of it.. If you know, you would be afraid.. Haha anyways, i was on the slope downwards and there was only a one way which is to turn to your left.. He asked ME TO PRESS THE GAS PEDAL so being a idiot i just press it... then in my mind because the car pick up speed very fast.. then in my mind, we were about 5 meters to going over the hill and i was at 90km/hr.. so i quickly brake and turn to the right.. wah suddenly everything happen so fast.. the car haha DRIFT.. as in really.. Haha like those fast and furious show.. the dust just came all over the car.. my bros was like damn energectic " they were like running out of the car shouting, laughing at me.. Haha while i was like breathing loudly behind the wheel.. you may think i am a sissy but serious this type of thing cannot play.. What if i die ? haha its like i am not ready to die... to understand why i am not ready to die, you SHOULD ALSO ASK YOURSELF.. are you ready to die ? haha then you will know.. yeah haha oh ya MUST WATCH FAST AND FURIOUS 3 TOKYO DRIFT... damn nice.. haha the cars are nice, the girls are hot and lastly the guys are hot too.. Haha only the white kid i think.. yeah..

Lesson 4 - Gangs in NZ..
Haha WOW.. what can i say.. they are a class higher than Spore gangs.. Let me try to give you a rough idea on about what gangs in NZ is like through all the stories told by my bros , nz friend and my bro's classmates.. Well auckland is split into 4 areas.. North , South, East and West side... However there are only South, East and West side gangs.. The north i am not to sure, never really heard about the north side.. The south side i think is thr strongest based on what i heard from my friends and bros there.. Partly because there the standard of living is the lowest... And also there the people are Maori and Islanders... they are the fiercest in the country... I can tell you NO WHITE KID dare to mess WITH A MAORI OR ISLANDER KID.. unless they got gangs but then again even if they did, they will always try not to cross one another paths.. And there is something i am not to sure.. its the theory about BLOODS AND CRIPS... its like 2 types of gangs.. its like if the BLOODS shot the CRIPS the crips won't use guns to shoot them back only beat them and if the CRIPS use guns at the BLOODS first the BLOODS will shot them back.. so in short the BLOODS type are more scarier.. In fact NZ is so dangerous compare to Spore.. Like my NZ friends, they will always have baseballs bats and poles keep in their cars.. Just in case their friends got wack, they would drive down and help... then the weapons will come in handy.. The people there will wack people for no reason.. Its like my friend friends were in the club just drinking.. And the next thing they know, they got beaten up by the cambodians.. you can call them the cambodians gang... FOR NO REASON.. And the reason why i said South side was fiercer than West and East side was because South side easier to get guns whereas for the East and West its harder.. A year back , there was a gun incident at this place at HIGHLAND PARK... haha i used to go there quite a few times.. So i was shocked when i heard about the gun incident.. A man took a shotgun and kill someone over there... If i am not wrong its a shot gun... So its like wth... And plus i feel lah.. there's a unspoken CLASS SYSTEM.. Well, the NEW ZEALANDERS are the top that means the whites, Maoris and islanders.. Follow by the Asians.. BUT BUT BUT... i thought the Asians will stick together and form a group not to be mess with... Haha but sad to say even they despise each other... So its like wtf.. we are already the bottom of the table and you still don't want to stick together and become SOMETHING... haiz, so sad to say you must have make as many friends as you can in NZ.. oh ya i forgot something... Haha another reason why South side is more dangerous is because... the place there has fights every week, daylight robbery, and drugs and stuff... SERIOUSLY... THE pool club is one place to avoid in South side.. because thats where all the Islander and Maoris people are.. haha you won't want to mess with them.. THEY ARE HUGE... as in REALLY HUGE... I was there to do some bank stuff.. And i was walking to the car with my Mum when i withness a 2 kids running holding some stuff.. and i was kinda curious because they were laughing and like you know... then suddenly i saw a indian man chasing them.. then the kids were like "oh shit" then they quickly ran off.. Haha my mum was so scare then she quickly come closer to me.... Then it was like nobody went to help... Until like about 1 min then one guy quickly ran after them.. Haha i know 1 min is a long time, but its a long time.. 1 min you can run 3oom away.. Haha shit i am being a maths teacher here.. but yeah 1 min is long in this situation... oh ya another thing why its quite dangerous in NZ is because of the police.. They will take 15 mins to come to that place.. And they are not open 24 hrs the police stations only some.. So by the time the police come after the fights, the fight already broken off with the losers lying in a pool of blood... So its bad.. i feel its best you try to protect yourseld and not rely on the police.. And in NZ, there are lots of raping cases and kipnapping cases.. so be careful... Haha i am like saying its a damn dangerous country... Well, it can be BUT IF YOU TAKE OF YOURSELF, ITS NOT.. And its a beautiful country like for you and your loved one.. HAHA erm i think next time when i marry i wanan spend few years with her enjoying the slow pace of life and everthing there.. the 4 seasons, the scenery, having road trips, go sking, going to have a drive.. Haha i tell you over there COUPLES HAVE LOTS OF THINGS TO DO, unlike SPORE.. its always movies, pool and what else ? even if there is somemore, its boring... Haha.. yeah... So hopefully i can find THE RIGHT one when i grow older la.. then we can have a long holiday there in NZ.. Haha it have to be the right one if not my $$$ will go down the drain.. cos it will be like almost all expenses paid trip... haha... can't wait to grow older...

Haha my feeling died already.. SHIT i thought i can complete the series.. Haha nevermind.. i have a long weekend to complete it.. Haha till then.. take care peeps..

Experiences in NZ Part 1

Well, this is kinda like a summary of all my experiences in NZ.. haha kinda glad i didn't miss this trip.. Haha now when i think back before i left, i am a idiot.. haha because i actually felt kinda sucky like no mood to go to NZ because yeah of the 'thing'.. haha but now i am DAMN glad i came.. So let me tell you why... haha this reminds me of the VB years in SHSS where i had to write a report after every vb trip.. haha anyways here it goes..

Lesson 1 - Don't give up one tree for the whole forest
Haha seriously... i have learnt this impt lesson.. i think because of this NZ trip, i have found out that there are just to many girls untap as in there are always girls out there for you... So don't because of one girl that let go of all these girls.. I mean there is always someone out there for you.. Just need to open your eyes BIG BIG BIG... haha anways, as usual i wil always go 'window shopping'.. haha wah the girls in NZ, is actually quite hot.. as in yeah.. Haha so being me, i always erm erm ahem try to seduce them, with my CHINA smile, my hongkie slang english, haha and lastly my seductive EYES AND SMILE... haha but its like damn hard.. my electricity always never seem to go through their eyes, it always get bounce back.. haha but i think if i like interact closely with the people here as in girls or guys i think i can click with them.. haha there are like a few incidents which i will see later in the post.. but there was this CONTACT.. Because i always bring my sister to this tuition teacher hse, then everytime there will be this girl from MACLEANS COLLEGE aka 'KATONG CONVENT' in spore haha because there are just to many hot girls there and guys.. haha will tell you why later... anyways haha she is pretty and she reminds me of JENNIFER HEWITT, don't know if you guys know but yeah.. The first time i saw her, as usual haha i tried to use my eyes aka CROSSHAIR you know like the gun's aiming thingy, haha yeah so i like tried to give the vibe to her.. but haha i think it got bounce.. shit.. haha so i like quickly bring my sister inside and tried to 'follow' behind her to the door and drive and like show off.. haha wah she surprise me sia, she drives too!! whoo, thats a plus point.. haha i don't know why but yeah.. haha plus she is about 16-17 years old because i heard from my bro she is year 12.. Haha anyways the 2nd time i went, i tried again.. Hahahhaha i think i did well enough for her to smile at me.. as in she took the initiative.. Hhaa cos she went out then later she came back in cos she forgot something then she look at me and smile.. haha i am not trying to prove anything.. haha i just wanna give a shout out!! haha cos like i bet most people have trouble trying to hook up with girls or just talking to them, even me haha either you feel inferior like in my case like you know why would a white chick wanna be interested in a china boy haha... BUT BUT BUT, haha as long as you have confidence you can do it!! seriously, if you yourself not even proud of yourself how are you going to score with someone... right ? haha anyways, if only i got stay in NZ for a longer time, i swear i will small talk to that girl the next time i went back there.. haha but i guess there are always chances in the future... haha anyways yeah so thats what i wanna say in this lesson, Don't give up one tree for the whole forest!!

Lesson 2 - I NEED TO EAT EAT EAT!!!
HAHA, seriously... man, when i came here and look at those people the same age as me.. i am like ' uhuh ? so ya 18 ? ' they are damn huge haha seriously... you wouldn't want to mess with them.. haha... they are like AVERAGE AR 185CM TALL AND WEIGHING 75- unlimted... when you walk in the streets, you will SELDOM I MEAN SELDOM see a scrawny NZ guy walking.. seriously.. haha is like DAMN SELDOM.. when i am in spore, i am like average... Haha but when i go there, i am XS... meaning extra small... I mean you can see la... like haha i don't know.. they are kinda fat or hunk... haha but mostly all fat... but still BIG... haha so being me, if you really know me, i got a thing like not only my crosshair eyes like to see the opp sex, it also like to see guys.. hhaa i am not gay.. i mean just look la.. i mean see if they are hot, haha if they are hot i will like be like a 'girl' and just like 'admire' them.. haha damn this sound gay but i am 100% STRAIGHT!! haha, thats why i feel i need to eat.. IN ORDER TO BRING UP ASIAN SIZE STATUS.. but sad to say asian guys are usually smaller in size.. but i tell you THIS CAN BE CURE... the problem with us being small is because the DIET... SERIOUSLY, i guess its the oil and stuff.. haha and we DON'T DRINK ENOUGH MILK.. haha i used to be like 65kg, but when i came here within 2 weeks, i gain 5kg.. haha i am now 70kg.. Haha and trust me its not easy gaining weight.. people always say gaining weight is easy and IT IS LOSING WEIGHT THAT IS TOUGH... Haha i never bluff.... Like you know when you are trying to lose weight if you stop just for 2 days you will ruin all your past efforts its the same FOR GAINING WEIGHT.. thats what happen to me... Haiz, i shouldn't have listen to my cousin, he was like saying 'wah your face become like a ball.' then i was like affected by it that i change my diet thus i drop 2 kg.. and now i have to eat doublely hard to compesanate.. and trust me its damn hard.. serious.. i didn't know i can lose 2 kg in 2 days.. shit sia.. imagine when i go back to spore eating all those food.. confirm slim down back to my original weight.. Now i know that gaining weight is equally tough as losing weight.......

Shit i am starting to hate bloging.. shit sia.. everytime i GET DC.. then the mood dies off.. i was typing on my lesson 4 thingy.. then it got disconnected.. shall carry on tmr.. haha anyways stay tune to lesson 3- Fast and Furious THE OPPOSITE, Lesson 4- Gangs in NZ , Lesson 5 Visits to the 'Heaven' school and the 'Hell' school and lastly lesson 6 ' My Family'.. This is a 6 part series brought to you by the one and only ZONG aka keith..

Life change in NZ..

I sleep with a baseball bat beside me, hugging it on my bed.. Grabbing for it everytime i hear a noise outside... I am the first line of defense in the house because i sleep downstairs.. haha but ME FIRST LINE ? more likely A SARCRIFICIAL LAMB to the ROBBERS.. those people here are HUGE!!! Erm and i found out i drink like a drunk idiot.. Speeding unnecessary, being scolded by my dad beside me, haha i don't like it.. i am like his soldier and he is the officer.. an eg ' ZONG, stop here!!!' ' GO GO GO!!' WHY NEVER LOOK LEFT LOOK RIGHT'!! ARGH.. but still i have to give him the respect cos he's my instructor... And i notice i have been gaining weight.. haha i am right now 69kg , i still got 7 more kg to go.. wahaha.. thanks to the milk i have been drinking.. its like water to me.. haha so girls if you want a 'MILKY' kiss come find me!! haha i can give it to you for free... sorry talking crap here.. argh now is 11.20, kinda lazy to type.. sorry shall stop here.. anyways, wow the white chicks here are kinda hot.. haha too bad i am a CHINA BOY in their eyes.. they think i can't speak english.. i will SHOW THEM A THING OR 2 WITH MY HONGKIE VERSION OF ENGLISH.. RIGHT AARON ?!! HAHAHA

What have i done so far ?!!

hahhaa... wah i am so dead.. think i better START working hard for my mid years.. i have been here for 6 days.. And what have i done in this 6 days... REVISE ONE CHAPTER OF ECONS, thats BAD man because i have so so so so many CHAPTERS TO STUDY... haha well for my recreation i have been doing fine.. like practising driving , eating lots and lots of stuff haha i just gain 2.5 kg still got 7.5 to 75kg... haha i know i can do it.. haha erm looking at white chicks ? haha i just found out NZ white chicks and not the islanders are quite hot... haha make me wanna come here fast fast to study... hhaa but then again asians hooking up with white chicks is DAMN DAMN hard.. unless you're a hunk.. haha hmmm, guess i have to build up my body first.. haha but i think i am getting to that shape.. haiz, still in the process of forgetting her.. but i don't think i can, what i can do is just keep myself busy by studying and eating... i even thought of getting her something.. hmm, like a box of belgian choc and erm something unqiue from NZ.. crazy me.. anyway, i got to go.. gonna eat somemore and revise my econs.. haha 15 more days till i am back.. can't wait to stretch that top man shirt... (:

NO WORRIES....

Haha OMG... I am writing this post in the DAMN DAMN COLD WEATHER HERE... I was looking through my tag board.. And thats when i saw rash's tag... omg.. i think i better snap out of it.. cos IF RASH said he is DAMN worried about me.. haha means there is something wrong... it sort of bring back to the O level days.. SHIT.. So this is a assrance post.. hey NO WORRIES guys.. haha you know me, i am the happy go lucky type.. i can concentrate on the IMPORTANT STUFF NOW... But thanks guys and RASH.. haha wah rash your tag suddenly made me worried... yup.. i think i know what ya wanna talk to me.. STUDIES i guess ?! Yeah talk to you when i'm back or msn.. if i know your msn add that is.. haha.. kk take care dudes (including rash)

Loss to Hwa Chong Insitution
Well, today sucks for me man... Before today i was full of confidence that my team would win all 3 teams and emerged "Zheng men" in our grouping.. However after today.. haiz.. i really feel like shouting at the opponents "WTF" i mean you guys can call me a SORE LOSER.. but the true is i hate losing.. seriously haha i really do.. i mean not trying to be 'hao lian" here but these guy were once lose to me.. but NOW they "TOK" me today.. haha for yr information "TOK" means thrashing.. i felt so helpless... i always thought i could be like Aaron the way he lead the team last year to them but ITS VERY HARD... i mean after the first set.. i had already given up.. they were clearly better than me.. i mean this was the first time i felt "lonely" on the "battlefield" i use to have zheng kai , Aaron , Edwin , Alvin and EVERYBODY IN THE TEAM!! to like support one another.. but today we were simply out class... we were drowned by their shouting.. their cheering was so loud that it got into my head.. At the start of the 2nd set, i knew we had lost their moral was running high... whereas ours.. haiz haiz we are playing individual ball.. NOBODY care about each other as in playing for themselves only not as a team.. I REALLY MISS PLAYING IN SHSS... Volleyball is a game where ONE person can change the outcome of a game but A TEAM CAN!! Thats why SHSS can succeed until now.. When i was playing today , i dunnoe why i started to think of Aaron , Edwin and Zheng Kai they all... i mean when i was blocking with my setter i thought for a moment if this was EDWIn how good it would be.. or Aaron and Zhneg Kai thundering haha.. Guess i really miss them.. I miss the times when we win point we would touch each other butts!! ahha not that we are gay.. but is sort of like in"US" haha.. I miss the times when we would miss up each other hairs when we win point.. let's just say I miss everything!!